Drabble_weekly Challenge 404 - Hoping against hope

[m_findlow]

Title: Hoping against hope

Author: m_findlow

Rating: PG

Length: 200 words

Content notes: none

Author notes: Written for Challenge 404 - I'm trying at drabble_zone

Summary: Jack has to live with the consequences of his actions. A double drabble.


Ianto kissed Jack for a protracted period of time before he felt Ianto's palms on his chest, pushing him away. Jack's lips left his reluctantly and he opened his eyes to find Ianto's head bowed in front of him, unable to meet Jack's gaze.

'I'm sorry,' Ianto whispered.

Jack immediately felt the guilt sink down his throat and settle in his stomach like a lead weight. Ianto wasn't the one who should be sorry. Jack only had himself to blame for Ianto being unable to keep touching him. It didn't stop Jack leaning forward to resume their kissing, but he was pushed away again.

Jack's head sank. 'We're never going to fix this, are we?'

Ianto's hand rested on his shoulders as his forehead made contact, leaning heavily against Jack's brow. 'I'm trying,' Ianto murmured. 'Really.'

Jack knew he wasn't lying, but he was never going to forgive Jack for what he'd done, sacrificing a child's life. He should have just been grateful that Ianto would even entertain letting Jack back into his life. For how long though? How long until Ianto could bear to even look at the child murdering monster Jack had become?

'Keep trying,' Jack begged. 'Please.'

Comments

[badly_knitted]

Ianto will forgive him eventually, but Jack needs to forgive himself too. He was backed into a corner where the only chance to save millions of children from a fate worse than death was to sacrifice one child, and there was only one available. Wouldn't surprise me if Decker had known a child would have to be sacrificed and had deliberately ensured Jack's grandson was the only one available. Why else were Alice and Steven brought there?